pxst_secret

Waiting.....

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 00:34:01 GMT

I know you are touring now but every time I see you are online on myspace my heart skips a beat.

I hope you still have that crush on me when you get back in May.

I know you said not to wait for you but you are what I want. You are worth the wait.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Sat, 11 Oct 2008 23:42:19 GMT

He is so lovely

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Wed, 20 Aug 2008 01:38:24 GMT

I test drove a really expensive, impractical convertible car today that I have nowhere near enough money to buy. Now that I've been behind the wheel, I want it... BAD.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Thu, 31 Jul 2008 22:44:12 GMT

i think i will always be sad.

but i like it here. i've never felt so real.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Sun, 29 Jun 2008 19:33:07 GMT

Why couldn't I have met him before he married her? I hate who I've become but I can't let him go. He spent the weekend with me and she spent the weekend with the kids. How could she not know?

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Tue, 17 Jun 2008 21:28:46 GMT

1] I would be a lot more mad about you playing me, if it wasn't for the fact that I was only in it for the sex anyways. Sucks for you. However, it doesn't mean I don't get to be mad. I still am. You played me. Skank.

2] I have been posting more secrets lately than ever before. I don't know if this is good or bad.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 00:21:16 GMT

I have to get out of here. I have to.
Everyone is dependent and weak and I can't handle it anymore.
I'm not like that, I never want to be like that, and I can't handle anyone assuming to my face that I am either.

I could never sacrifice my morals because I'm too dependent on others to tell them they're sick in the head and a physical danger to me.

I have to get away, I have to get away.
No one has any internal strength here.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 05:01:11 GMT

I just wish I could find someone who loved me for me, but could also take care of me in the same way I could take care of them.

I'm tired of not being equal. I need give and take.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Tue, 27 May 2008 06:02:55 GMT

I cheated on my boyfriend with a guy four years younger than me, and I don't feel guilty.

I feel guilty that it wasn't the person I'm actually in love with instead of Mr. Jail Bait or my boyfriend.

But I actually felt attractive for the first time in years.

I want to feel like that again.

call me crazy?

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Fri, 23 May 2008 18:26:29 GMT

I was in a psych ward two years ago[almost], for a few days. As short as a time this may seem, it felt like a lot longer. I'd never felt safer or more comfortable in my life as I did when I was there. I made a friend I still talk to till this day[whom none of my other friends know about], and had a mutual "thing" for a boy there and I still wonder about his whereabouts today, although I know he's only a city away.

secret -if you asked me the one place I'd truely rather be, I'd tell you there.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 05:33:07 GMT

i'm completely at a loss.

i don't know what to do with myself.

i hate living so much. why is it so goddamn hard?

god.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Tue, 26 Feb 2008 00:47:35 GMT

what is it about you? how come i have him and still i burn to feel you against me and inside me again, with your long silky hair on my skin and your soft cries in my ears? what do you have that makes me so shamelessly in heat when i think about you and me in your bed last year? why can't i be satisfied without you?

you don't even want me emotionally. i know you'd sleep with me again, but all i'd ever be is a friend with benefits to you.

and i'm ok with that, and i want that...but at the same time, i'd give anything for a way to be with you, just for a few months or something, just to see what it would be like, waking up to your beautiful face every morning...but only if i could do it and go back to him after, because we both know that we'd never be long-term.

what. the hell. is wrong with me?

what do you do to me? i'm all tangled up inside from your smile and your touch.

i hope you never find out.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 17:08:09 GMT

Hi.

I am the person who Miss_Kink decided to bitch about in her last post.

Up until this time, we had been having a quite argument over gmail because of a error on my part and a response of her's that I found to be demeaning.

She decided, in a rather childish way, to bring our conversation into this forum. Not only is that embarrassing to me, but because she is one of moderators of this group I had assumed that she would show some tact and keep our conversation between us.

Apparently not.

So, so that everyone knows. I followed the directions on the _postsecret info about getting passwords. Thinking that I would get a simple reply with the password (somewhat like an automatic response from company if you've ever done that before).

I didn't realize this went to a personal email. That I think is a total mistake on her part, but whatever.

She replied with nothing in the email, prompting me to ask if I had missed the password or if I was misunderstanding something.

She replied with this:

"Oh. I figured we were both sending blank emails on purpose!
(please and thank you would be nice)"

I'm sorry, I am wrong to think that that rely was totally unnecessary? I didn't mean to upset her, and had only literally followed the directions on the profile information.

Seriously, I am fine with talking with her about the problem outside. But for her to talk about me (yes I understand she didn't say my username directly but still) and not this issue itself, like asking for the password in the email and saying please and thank you, in the group of which we are both apart of makes her seem petty and childish.

She knew I would read it, and honestly that's degradating and mean.

This isn't a rant. I just need my side to be heard. Sorry for wasting space on your friend's pages :/

um...

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Sun, 17 Feb 2008 19:11:25 GMT

February 15th I had my first orgasm. I was just making out with my boyfriend, dressed and everything, and... well... it happened. It was startling and a little embarrassing since I've never felt that before. He sort of teased me about it, but later when we were kissing again I noticed he was suddenly warm "down there"
I did the same thing to him. It felt like payback, and I was sort of proud of myself for doing that to him.

but I will never ever tell a soul. Aside from the internet.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 22:22:03 GMT

fine. you win. you can have him as your boyfriend.

i just hope he still will talk to me. and, you know... be friends.

after all, i'm letting you have him.

i do this WAY too much, and for that, i think i will always be alone.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 03:18:34 GMT

everyone has someone to talk to.
everyone has a "best friend", or at least a close one.

but i have never had anything like that. i feel like an outsider.

and the more i see it and feel this way, the more it breaks my heart over and over.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Fri, 02 Nov 2007 00:17:03 GMT

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 18:46:44 GMT

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Wed, 11 Apr 2007 01:37:40 GMT

I'm terrified to put anything into my vagina.

Tampons, my finger, another person's finger.

And when the oppurtunity comes I will probably be scared to get a penis in there too.

I've tried tampons/masturbating before, but I just can't bring myself to do it.

I don't know what to do!

mhmhm

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Tue, 27 Mar 2007 22:22:53 GMT

I fucking love you.
So very much.
I wanna marry you one day and have cute babies.

But... god I miss him. and him.
and him.

I wanna fuck a men, or two.
I am growing tired of your penis and the way you fuck me.
I am just bored.
I think about other men all the time and mainly the one I used to escape your reality with.

I don't want to be unfair... cause It would kill me if you had sex with another girl.
I don't want to hurt you or lose you.

But god!!!!
I want to feel someone else.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Wed, 21 Mar 2007 21:55:53 GMT

i was invited to partcipate in a threesome
i want to do it.
i've never had sex before.
im having doubt in it because i may get my period soon
and the guy in the threesome has a girlfriend who is not participating (FFM threesome)

would it be trashy if i lost my virginity in a threesome?

its not a matter of 'waiting for the right person' kind of deal. i dont really give a shit about that. i just haven't lost my virginity because the opportunity has never arose. but now that it has, i have my doubts meh.

advice?

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Tue, 23 Jan 2007 04:44:41 GMT

i will never wan t to get with you. stop being such a selfish bastard. its been over a year since the first time i turned you down. my feelings haven't changed.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Sun, 31 Dec 2006 04:34:27 GMT

Vivo mi vida para te.

You should feel so lucky. You don't.
Men are assholes.

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Tue, 26 Dec 2006 15:20:56 GMT

You: "i'm starting to worry that you're losing a little too much weight"
Me: psh, nah

What I meant to say: Me too, mom

I'm trying to keep the same, and not lose any weight. But if I'm not losing it, I start feeling fat.

I haven't been this light since I was ten, so why do I feel fat?

postsecretlj@yahoo.com — Tue, 12 Dec 2006 02:39:46 GMT